I came a long way since I started this site. My background in art therapy allowed me to analyze my drawings, to see a connection amongst them and thus, to derive new meaning. Since the publication of the album "The Circus", I had time to pull back a bit and started reading. There are so many new belief systems out there, that it led me to a state of greater confusion than anything else. At the same time, I am brought to a still point which is sometimes necessary. It is a bit like following the cycles of the moon. There is a time for creation as represented by the full moon, as well as a time when one remains still, as in the new moon. The new moon represents a time for reflection when chaos pulls itself together again, before shedding new light and a new understanding.
There is a wide belief 'out there', in the so-called "Rapture". At first, I thought that this myth was part of a none-sensical belief system. Many people await the "Coming of the Messiah" at the End of Days: a time when the Chosen ones will be literally lift up from this world before its total annihilation. For instance, Christian fundamentalists believe in the Coming back of Jesus Christ, who will lift up the true believers into Heaven before (or during) the Apocalypse. The Jews are also awaiting the coming of their Messiah, who, according to them, will come after the construction of their third Temple (this Temple needs to be built just above the Dome of the Rock, which is believed to stand above the ruins of the 2nd Temple). This means that many fundamentalist Jews believe that the Dome of the Rock needs to be eradicated before the third Temple is built. (Imagine just for a few minutes, what kind of answer from the Muslim world the destruction of their Third Holiest Place, would bring about). On the other side of the scale, some UFOs believers think that some huge spaceship would lift some of us to transport us to a new world free, before (or again during) the apocalypse. How about hitchiking a ride with strangers? There is no way back.
What bothers me about all of these belief systems is that salvation comes from an outside source, and thus I do not believe in any one of them. I dislike any system of believe which is waiting for a Savior "out there" which will lift us up from our troubles (which we have created in the first place) instead than a system which will point us as the creators of a new and better world (this does not mean that we do not receive any help but it means that we have to take full responsability for the creation of this new potential world wherever it will be). Sorry, there is a lot of work ahead. Nobody is there to save us.
It occurred to me that if I believe that other myths have at least psychological values and meanings, there must be something to The Myth of The Rapture. Right now, there is a huge change happening to this world. Many of us can feel it or see it by the increase of chaos and division we are experiencing in this world. We are coming to the end of an era which is portrayed as approaching the end of the Mayan calender. Wheter that change will be positive or negative remains to be seen. The coming of the end of the Mayan Calender brings about a change of earth frequencies. The frequency waves bombarding the earth, are increasing in forces, creating unprecedented chances for growth or total chaos (this I believe strongly, because of the increased force of energy I am feeling during my meditations). There is a choice to be made: are we going to increase the distance between us and our spiritual heritage by increasing our sense of division and duality, or are we going to choose to go beyond this false dichotomy and see the world with new and different eyes, becoming finally aware of the unity amongst us : "Schma Israel, Adonai, Elohenu, Adonai Echad" ("Listen, Israel, Adonai, Elohenu, Adonai, your God is ONE"). "What was the crime that Israel had committed, which will bring about its destruction?", I asked on the walls of my former house in the territories. It surely could not be the giving back of the land. Was it, perhaps, the division Jewish Nation felt amongst themselves, a microscopic representation of this world in general?
The lifting first needs to be created on the psychological level. This in turn will affect our 3 dimensional space, first in our own body and then in the world around us. Whether this will lead us to a total change of space such as in a new Terra (another world similar to this one existing in a parallel Universe), or in a better world in the here and now, only time will tell. Again, some people believe that only a few chosen ones will end up on this new Terra, as this world will go through total destruction. Again, amongst different belief systems, in the UFOs category, the fate of this world varies. Some believe that this world is a major area of conflict amongst different species of ETs; a very expensive piece of real estate due to its location and important portals toward different worlds; others believe that the earth could become a toxic dump for other ET's races who do not know what to do with their nuclear waste; others believe that some ETs races intend to enslave us: hence all of them have a stake to the earth and want to conquer it. According to these beliefs, many of us are already controlled by some form of magnetic and electric wavelenghts (called the "NET" which disturbs our own magnetic field, intensifying our own division and creating the state of chaos we are living in right now). All of this created by some race of ETs. OUF...I am sure that there is more. What disturbs me, I have to admit, is that from a very early stage, I noticed that my drawings seem to convey images of beings standing at the background and controlling the people (making them believe in the righteousness of religious wars, for example). However, we do not have to go so far as Aliens to know that most of our society is controlled by the class of Elites (whom we do not see), and by our media. Most people proud themselves of thinking independantly; so why is it that most of us think the same way?
So who is "The Magician" (the last drawing published in the album "The Circus")? Who hypnotizes us so that we all become caught into the net and its the madness (portrayed in "Crazy Clown", see the album "The Circus"). Does it really represent ETs trying to control and hypnotize us to make us believe in the state of dualism as to perpetuate and increase the conflict and the wars on this planet? However, as I already said, the Magician could also represent the psychological control of the masses by the Elites and the Media. In any case, it represents a state of madness and unconsciousness from which (as representing by the NET in many of my drawings) most of us are caught into. Thus, the most important question, at this time, is not who is the Magician, but how can we free ourselves from the NET? We can only break from this state of illusion and this net (Buddhism and Hinduism speak of a state of illusion which is called Maya, and which is represented by a spider web) by raising our level of frequency, from a 3D frequency to a 4D frequency. This can lead us beyond our present state of duality to a more wholistic state and one of greater creativity. When it comes to the end of the Maya calender (which has been calculated around 2012, then again I am left, at this point, in the dark). Changes are happening now. Yes. There is and will be an increase in the magnetic field of the earth wich can help many of us to make a huge leap in our evolution. How this change will be actualized and exactly at what time is harder to define. My problem with specific dates is that many of us can become nihilistic in the process i.e. we can work on ourselves but what is the point to strive for any social changes if the earth is destroyed in the next few years? See what I mean? The fact is that we do not know when and how this change will happen and exactly where it is leading us. I am sure that all these "contactees" feel that they receive true knowledge. Meanwhile many systems of beliefs are in juxtaposition with one another. Who is telling the truth?
One thing is certain is that all my drawing speaks of our Collective unconscious. They are telling us how divided we have become, and thus we have to move beyond that state if we want to create any kind of a better world (this one, or Terra or whatever) and perhaps avoid its total destruction. In any case, as I see it, the whole point to come into this world is to evolve as spiritual beings. So as we begin to work on ourselves, end of the world or not, we are still going to come out as winner. So I am back at the same point of understanding, like a circle, which means we got to grow. And there is definitively an urgency to the message....
The Kibbutz where I lived for 2 years in Israel was hit by one of the most powerful rockets they have received so far. No human injuries (though a few cases of post traumatic stress disorder syndromes and 10 cows were killed-- the rocket felt on the farm).
"How can I move beyond the state of dualism and hatred, when the shadows of my enemies stand at my door, ready to destroy me?"
Meanwhile, I believe that we soon will enter into contact with the Annunakis. I keep hearing during my meditation: "We are the great Anunnakis". When I hear these words, I feel such power and strenght coming into my beings. It feels like a great and incredible civilization is coming through, but also a proud one. Do I believe in all of these voices and images I am receiving? Well, I take everything with a grain of salt till further knowledge is brought down. What would make my vision more real than another one? In addition, reading about the Anunnakis from the Sumerians texts do not make me feel really good. They had warriors camps and factions. If they have created us, as claimed by some authors, and help to create life on this planet, well, then they also feel that they have a stake on this world. Can we really trust them?
In my meditation sessions, I am also led to believe that I am in contact with the Guardians (they appear sometimes, symbolically, as dogs in my drawings (like guard dogs, therapy dogs, dogs for the blind... our best friends). I believe that ultimately these beings are only a source of pure energy. They are simply sending me information in form of symbollic holograms which I can relate to. They are telling me that they are from the Emerald order (sometimes my solar plexus get filled with a green/emerald color; then the strenght and sense of purpose arising in me during these times increase by many folds). Never, during any meditation, did I receive negative or scary images, or I would have stopped. I am always filled with compassion, sense of beauty and light. I believe that the images I am drawing, are being downloaded during my sleep (many times, I wake up at the end of a discussion: I can hear the last sentences or words but only see darkness) or perhaps during my meditation (in which I see images but they come as quick and undefined flashes). I am not aware of any of the images (i.e.my drawings) till I put them onto paper. There was one time however, before the evacuation, when I saw the world under very dark eyes. This strange period followed the week of Holocaust and Memorial day in Israel. Very depressing time. During two to three months after these "Holidays", I saw humanity in a cold and chilling vision. The vision was dark, black and devoided of any feeling apart from one of total contempt and disgust. The eyes, with which I saw as in a black hole, despised humanity. This vision came with only one question. What was our excuse? The eyes were showing me what we have done to this world: the havoc toward all the other species and toward ourselves. They were the cold eyes of scientists who had integrated a new foreign species into an ecological system, which ultimately was leading to a total destruction of the very same system. This species needed to be brought back into balance or totally annihilated. At least that what it felt. The worst is that I had nothing to tell "them", apart from showing them the love I had for my children and their innocence. They remained silent. It did not feel like a great excuse in comparison to what we had done. Is this a true vision, or does it simply arise from our collective unconscious? Are we really prey to some races of ETs, or are we going to be our own destroyers, without the need of any outside source? All I am certain of, at this point in time, is that we have to raise our frequency level if we are to hope for a better world. This is our only way out.
